To my cousin, Kyoung Ah

To my cousin, Kyoung Ah

 

 

When

Your mild smile,

over the big glasses,

 

and

your polite verbal,

captivating an esteemed elder,

 

and

your brightness,

from brain of a honor student,

 

and

your absurd behavior,

that makes us comfortable,

 

broke down at a time, I saw you just like a dead body falling in a faint.

Then,

I feel you in me destroyed with tears.

 

A man who is always with you,

and a man who you believe him to be with you,

if it is a love…,

 

The very day that you lost the love,

your heart and your body are made to be weaken.

 

I was so anxious about your pretending attitude

which you endeavor to hide the sadness.

 

Even if you was so humble that you didn't boast of him,

Just you say that he was an unsalty guy.

 

I already felt that his unsaltiness had encompassed you

with the openheartedness like the sky,

with the so much wide love like the sea.

 

The pain of my heart said to me just like this,

Now, the warm sea and openhearted sky changes into the strong storm

and the rough wave,

and then they beat, scratch and cover up and down you,

without any person who protects you.

 

But you try to support yourself among them,

then your black green hurts are waving in your heart.

 

However,

I know that

the black green hurts

comes finally to be the sea

which encompass you again,

through my little experience.

 

Until the pain of my heart comes to be end,

I will fill my heart with the unwet hopes for you.

 

 

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Kyoung Ah is a poet's cousin. She lost her husband in a car accident. The poet saw her fallen at funeral home. She was a good and exemplary girl on her school days but she was despairing because she lost her husband, Then the poet imagined how a woman 's life would be drawn and worried about her. And the poet wrote this poem with a heartfelt desire for her to live a life of hope.